The teacher becomes the student

The teacher becomes the student

A sign of a good teacher is the one that is able to also be the student. Teachers learn in the moment from experiences with their students and other teachers. They also benefit from purposefully putting themselves in the role of student, as I did recently by attending the Doug Keller yoga therapy training. I have eagerly been anticipating this event for over a year, as I was unable to go last year. As a side note, he is a wonderful teacher if you ever have the chance to attend one of his trainings.

I arrived just in time for the training due to work and traffic. As a result, I got a spot in what I will refer to as the “black hole” of the room. I did not feel a sense of connection, and as we know from yoga, disconnect is the reason we develop an ego. My ego, which tends to show up as self depreciating, began to get loud. A common misconception is that ego is bragging and boastful, but that is only one side of the coin. Whether you are telling yourself you are better or worse, it's still all ego. My negative self talk ramped up and for awhile I bought into it. And then remembering came to me. I was not alone. I am perfectly imperfect. I am part of an incredible tradition that is still developing.

Once this awareness came I could see the factors that were contributing to my discomfort and rather than sit and suffer by myself, I reached out. By sharing my vulnerability and being received with empathy, my perspective changed. Does this mean that my ego was totally silent for the rest of the training? Not at all. But I could laugh at my thoughts, I could share them with others and best of all, I could remember the underlying connection and unity that ties us all together.

I learned a lot on about yoga therapeutics as well and am looking forward to sharing those next time we meet. In the meantime, check in with your sense of self and remember you are not alone. We have each other's back.

Shanti, Janice